Went to see my cpn and when I got there Dr Latif called me in said he had a cancellation and could do a quick medication review with me as at presant I am under the Crisis team. I feel it was very unfair of my cpn and Dr Latif to spring a medication review on me like that. As I have to prepare myself when I have to see him. He doesn't listen to a word I have to say. He does all the talking and you don't get a word in edge way. I find him a very rude unhelpful man and most of the time I'm lucky to get even a 5 minute appointment with him when I have to drive for an hour round trip to see him. I have requested lots of times with my cpn that I don't wish to see Dr Latif and that I would like to see a different doctor. But my views just don't get listened to as she says he is the only doctor at that clinic. Which I know isn't true. All he ever wants to do is either reduce my medication or take me off it. There was a time that he took me of all my medication. Just stopped all my medication and made me go cold turkey then I was very ill for 9 months being sick. I couldn't keep any food or drink down that I ended up having to have a camera put down my throat to then be told that the reason I was so sick was because he didn't wean me of my medication. How was that helpful to me when I was on a lot of mental health medication. I saw him today and I just found him patronising. He didn't want to listen to what I had to say. He just wasn't interested in what I had to say. I felt like he talked down to me. He seems to think he knows all the answers. He doesn't know me or understand what I am going through. I just don't think he is interested. He has his goal and his goal is to get me off all my medication. If he actually listened to me then he would understand the daily battles that I have going on in my life and in my head. I actually feel worse after seeing him that he makes me feel like killing myself. Even today knowing that I am unwell and that I'm under the Crisis team. He seems to think that now I have finished DBT that I shouldn't be on any medication and that I should use the skills that I have learnt when I was doing DBT. I'm sorry but DBT isn't the answer to everything. DBT is all about the here and now. I've never been given the chance to talk about my childhood or my past or what has gone on for me in my life for the last 8 years plus. Unless I am given the help to deal with my past then there is no way of me being fixed just because I have done DBT. I need help and support to help me deal with my childhood and past and what's been going on in the last 8 years. I feel like he thinks me doing DBT for the last 2 years that I should be able to cope with my life without medication. This last year has been hell for me. Doing 5-10 minutes of mindfull isn't going to take away what happened to me as a child or the hell I have been going through over the last 8 years. This doctor needs to learn how to listen to patients and not just focus on his views and not let his patient even talk and try and explain. Because when I have tried to explain he just isn't interested. What's the point in seeing a doctor if he doesn't listen to your views. I should be able to trust him and be able to talk to him but I can't. I have now decided that I will stick to my guns and I refuse to see him ever again. What right does he have in making me feel like killing myself as he makes me feel worthless. He reduced me to tears today that I just had to get out of the same room as him. The worse bit is not even him or my cpn came outside to see if I was ok. To me that just says it all. I lost faith in East Northants mental health team years ago.
Short link to review Dr Shahid Latif: http://iwgc.net/efv9j